What do you do about those terrible days when nothing seems to go right, everything you do turns out wrong, or undone or all your plans are taken up with everyone else demanding your time and energy? 

You're tired, you're warn out, you don't feel good and no one seems to care. Your temper is short, your head hurts and you're snapping at everyone.

You want to yell out,
"Does anyone care about ME ?"

I've been there and done that many times.  When I get to the point were I'm in tears, frustrated, and don't seem to care anymore, I sit in exhaustion with tears running down my cheeks, wondering what happened?!  And, it isn't PMS  :o)   Everyone you love has kind of left you alone.  They don't know what to do with you.  Ever been there?

Well, at this point I am so exhausted from my struggle that I seem to be sitting still.   The verse "Be still and know that I am God" rings in my ears.

Hummmm . . . when was the last time
 I spent time in God's Word? 

My excuse . . . "Well, I went to church Sunday, and I studied and prepared to lead Bible Study for the women's group Monday night, and let's see . . . I held the Art Therapy class on Wednesday and we were reading some verses, and Wednesday night I met with one of my friends and we talked about the Lord and how we should walk in His Glory so that He shines in our life.  I don't get where I messed up!!!

Then this little small voice says, "Ahhhh . . . but, Julie . . . did you talk to Me today?  Did you search My Word to see what I had for you today? In fact, have you studied your Bible for yourself in the last couple of days?"

I think back and realize that maybe it's been three or four days since I've read the Bible just for myself . . . well, maybe it's been a week.  Hummm . . . you know, I think it's been two weeks.

Then I begin to realize that in those times when I really get messed up in the everyday struggles, there is a pattern that relates back to my going from day to day, skipping my personal studies in the Bible. As the days go on, I'm smiling, I'm handling it.  This is great, my life is good. Then things start to pile up, and things are hitting me faster and faster.  Have you ever watched that old I love Lucy program, when Lucy is working on the assembly line and gets behind?  That's what I feel like.  Of course, I try to handle it all. I tell myself, "It will be O.K. I can handle this." 

Well, I can't.  I become like a car running on a full tank of gas, I keep going and going and pretty soon, I find myself running on fumes until I'm out of fuel completely.  Now I sit still, quiet and empty.

It is so easy to slip into this pattern.   I can't handle anything within my own strength.  When will I learn that?  

~Julie Bergeron  
 

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